Running in Jerusalem Marathon helps S.F. artist gain clarityby emma silvers, j. staff
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It was cold and raining heavily the morning of the second annual Jerusalem Marathon, with sporadic showers of hail careening off the streets. As she found her way to the starting line, Rebecca Ora remembers being terrified that she was going to slip and break her neck.
“That would be it: I would fall and die trying to run the Jerusalem Marathon,” the 30-year-old San Francisco resident says with a hearty laugh.
Preparing for the start, Ora wondered about how the seasoned runners from other countries would react to the “typical” Israeli sights she was used to — armed soldiers lingering on the street, or young Orthodox girls in skirts down to their ankles handing out water bottles to passing runners. In place of the packaged electrolyte drinks and energy gel shots available on the sidelines of U.S. races, there were fresh Israeli dates.
“It was so interesting to watch this incredibly old city try to warm to this very bizarre international event,” Ora says. “Because Jerusalem is trying to establish itself as an international city. There’s the new bridge [the modern-looking Bridge of Chords], with this new, very modern tram, alongside completely ancient artifacts. There’s always this juxtaposition, but the marathon really put that in the spotlight.”
Ora ended up placing 371st overall out of around 1,000 runners in the 26.2-mile race, and 21st in her division (women 20 to 39), with a time of 4 hours, 11 minutes, 52 seconds. Not only did she triumphantly finish her first-ever full marathon, but she also recorded most of the journey on a waterproof HD sports video camera.
Although she captured as many of the sights and sounds as she could, there’s one thing the footage doesn’t quite show: the back story of how this self-proclaimed atheist got to the starting line, and how the run came to mean so much to an American girl who once had what she described as “zero interest” in ever visiting Israel.
Two months after the race, the artist and filmmaker is just getting back to her normal routine. Six days a week, she gets out of bed at her apartment in San Francisco’s Lower Haight neighborhood and runs through the Panhandle, through Golden Gate Park and to the beach. Then she runs back. It’s 10 miles in total, most days.
“I love that park, I love my neighborhood, and I love my routine,” says Ora, a petite redhead with wide eyes and a small gold nose ring. “I can count the steps between the pond and the bison, and how many steps it is from there to the beach. I know that land by heart. I can literally run it with my eyes closed.”
These days, the run also serves as stress reliever as she heads into the thick of the production process for her documentary, which will delve into the connection between her decision to run the Jerusalem Marathon and her complicated and changing relationship with Israel.
She plans to bookend the film with footage from her upcoming run in the San Francisco Marathon the last weekend in July.
Land fascinates Ora, as do the different ways an individual can take ownership of it.
The second eldest of seven kids, the daughter of a mother from Brooklyn and a father from Jerusalem, Ora grew up in an observant family, attended an Orthodox school near Los Angeles — and was leery of whether Israel could live up to the myth created around it.
“Throughout my childhood, it was this trope that my teachers and rabbis would show us pictures of Jerusalem and say, ‘This is your city, your holy country,’ ” says Ora, adding that she rejected the religious aspect of her Jewish upbringing and has considered herself an atheist from a young age. “The fact that [Israel] was mythologized so heavily — how could you actually assign any value to that? One cannot at once hold onto the myth and live the reality of the space.”
Still, her sense of Jewish identity was strong.
Ora used that journey to comfort a cousin who’d just lost her mother, and even though the two ended up traveling and having a positive experience, Ora remained skeptical that she should feel any personal connection to the Jewish state.
But after returning to the U.S. and graduating from college — faced with the age-old question of “What now?” — she found herself drawn back to Israel. A cousin who lived there passed on information about an arts residency at the WUJS Institute (World Union of Jewish Students) in Arad, located on the border of the Negev and Judean deserts.
“I lived there for a year in the desert, with Bedouins and donkeys, the whole deal,” she says.
Around that time, her teenage brother and his friends, who were all about to leave on a Holocaust study trip through Europe, were attacked on the streets of Los Angeles. They were wearing kippot.
“There are pictures of my brother standing in front of Auschwitz with an Israeli flag with a black eye, with welts on his face, looking so proud,” Ora says. “And I recognized this connection he’d made — he had this deep need to be there.”
Something about his passion stuck with her.
After her time in the desert, Ora again returned to the U.S. and applied to graduate schools, then spent an uncomfortable year at the University of New Mexico in Albuquerque. “There just wasn’t much there for me there in the contemporary arts, and it was also the first time I’d really been anywhere without Jews,” she says. “But it was interesting — for the first time, having ‘being Jewish’ be this main source of identity.”
Ultimately, she enrolled in 2008 in a two-year graduate program in social practices at the California College of the Arts in Oakland. The curriculum allows students to work in new media, political art and discourse, says Ora, who works mainly in film.
“It was a fascinating experience, because there are so many recent immigrants in Sweden, largely from the Middle East and from Africa; the cultural makeup of the country is really shifting,” she says. “And when it comes to anti-Israel sentiment, you had these white, right-wing Swedes coming together to hold hands with Muslim immigrants to protest this match.
“Which is why it was hard for me when I kept hearing people there say that ‘the anti-Muslim movement is the new anti-Semitism,’ ” she continues. “You look at what happened outside that tennis match … all I could do was keep saying ‘No, anti-Semitism is the new anti-Semitism. This is still a very real problem.’ ”
She wore a Star of David necklace the whole time she was in Sweden, despite well-meaning strangers and acquaintances constantly advising her against it.
Ora graduated from CCA in 2010 with a master’s in fine art and was awarded the prestigious Toby Devan Lewis Fellowship, a $10,000 prize for MFA students who show exceptional promise. Again, she found herself unsure of her next step or direction.
“I had run some, growing up, but this was different,” Ora says. “It was the end of a certain episode of my life, and I realized I was going to need structure, something to make me feel like I had accomplished something … especially in the art world, there’s so little formal affirmation. So if by 10 a.m. I could say ‘Hey, I ran 10 miles already today,’ that was something I could feel good about.”
She ran a series of half marathons (13.1 miles) over the next 18 months. And somewhere in that time, she realized she had to go back to Israel: She had things to say.
“My voice is obviously a diasporic one, but I came to think of that outsider voice as significant,” she says. “In terms of the relationship between Jews in America and Jews in Israel, in terms of my relationship to my cousins who are the same age as me who serve in the army because they live there — and yet I reap the benefits of the Jewish state. I do have a certain amount of guilt about not having served in the [Israeli] army, whether I agree with everything the state does or not.”
Ora realized running the Jerusalem Marathon — physically traversing the ancient city, pushing her body to its limits — could be her way to serve Israel. Without a religious practice or a particularly personal take on the Israeli-Palestinian conflict to help her forge a connection to the land, the idea of physical exertion in Israel took on a level of spirituality for the filmmaker.
“You see Birthright trips where the group goes to the Kotel, and there are girls who don’t know a word of Hebrew, have never been to synagogue, with tears streaming down their faces,” she says. “And I sit and feel so separate from that — I see the stone as cold, as a barrier. I had to make this place significant to me in some other way.”
Ora applied for a Haas/Koshland grant through the S.F.-based Jewish Community Federation to help with funding. She started keeping a blog (http://www.irunjerusalem.wordpress.com) about the project in January 2012, detailing her thoughts, hopes and fears about Jerusalem, San Francisco and identity politics as she trained. She flew to Israel a week before the race to check out the course and spend time with her cousins.
The day of the race was March 16, and Ora remembers noting the demographics of the other runners lined up for the 26.2-mile marathon. Not too many of them were Israelis, she observed. “It’s a fairly new thing for them,” she says.
Since the marathon was on a Friday, local officials had advised residents to get their Shabbat shopping done early, as the city would be difficult to get through. Residents and families gathered along the sidelines to watch. When it began, Ora didn’t think about keeping pace with anyone else. She took in the sights around her, put what she’d learned about stretching the limits of her body and her attention span to use, and felt the ground under her feet with each step.
When it was over, Ora was exhausted and covered in mud — experiencing more of an emotional and physical high than she knew was even possible.
“Running is significant because it re-establishes that analog nature of movement in time and place,” she says. “I don’t really understand the distance between New York and Los Angeles, because I’ve only traveled it by plane. I sort of understand the distance between L.A. and San Francisco, because I’ve driven it a lot. But I really understand the distance between my house [in the Lower Haight] and the beach: I know what it tastes like, what it smells like, its length and time.
“And now I had a bit of that — just a beginning of an understanding — in Jerusalem,” she says.
As she’s editing and planning the next part of her documentary, the moments after the race are still fresh in Ora’s mind.
“They ushered us into this tent and handed out medals and trophies, and then all of a sudden everyone was just shoving food into their faces,” she recalls, laughing. “There were these huge piles of fruit and cake and Turkish coffee, and people were just stuffing handfuls of cake into their mouths, that’s how hungry you get.
“And then it was 3 o’clock, and there was a deluge and suddenly everyone had disappeared,” she remembers. “Everyone all at once took cover to prepare for Shabbat, and I found myself and my friends completely alone. We went from this height of action, this crazy bustle, to this utter silence.”
She shakes her head at the memory.
“But that’s almost Jerusalem in a nutshell,” she says. “That’s just Jerusalem.”
cover photo/cathleen maclearie
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